Is this ever going to end? I had two weeks “clean” no binges, no chewing, and I was proud of it. It happened by accident, two days went by that I had no opportunity to chew, so once I realized it was two days I just went with it and I made it all the way to two weeks. It felt really good. Stress hit me and so did my habit, two weeks out the window. Same story, cookies, chocolate, a headache, bloated stomach and a couple of extra pounds on the scale, I threw it all away. That led to a few more days of chewing, not as severe, the usual once a day, but the weight stayed on bc my insulin just stayed high.
I’m two days with no chewing again, but I really want to! I’ve started thinking, can I really beat this on my own? Do I really need to take time away from my family to go to a therapist to tell me stop spitting out my food? What is wrong with me…seriously, just stop eating like a moose, why am I obsessed with food!?! I’m so frustrated!